This year has been particularly bright for me thus far. That doesn’t mean I don’t have bad days. I feel like my health has finally taken a turn for the better. One of the biggest and brightest developments for me this year is realizing that by slow and tender progress I can break negative habits. I can overcome that which holds me back and over the long haul I am beter for it. I shouldn’t be afraid of my failures. I shouldn’t be ashamed of my past. But I should realize that God is so much bigger than all of this. Over the last year I have seen God working in my heart. it was so hard before. So hurt and wounded. I turned to anything to sooth my pain. From failed relationships to losing dear friends. From personal failures to business failures. The wounds,the pain, the shame they overwhelmed me. The sometimes personal attacks, threats of violence, and hatred made me realize that in all of it God was bigger than all of that.
God loves me, he loves even my failures. He doesn’t condone my greatest nor smallest failures. But he truly loves me. He loves me more than I will ever know.
I am through feeling like I have to be ashamed that God wants me back. He want my heart, and he wants my failures.
Before I was a web developer,before I was a website builder, before I understood and tasted success I was a child of God. And that is so much more important and greater than anything I can have in this world.