Sometimes when you lay your heart out there you get hurt. For some reason it’s a pattern with me. With friends, with lovers, with family. I tell you though I’m really tired of it all. Tired of opening my heart to get it hurt. Tired of unintentionally hurting others. I’m tired of relational letdowns. Faced with an ever thick cloud of loneliness I wait for the peace that normally comes when I’m this tired. To put energy innto relationships to only get confusion in return. I’ve done all to much the last few years and I dont get it. I’m convinced it’s time for a break of new relationships and just head off into contentent with what I have and who I am.
For now only peace is here but I’m hoping I havent buried the emotions somewhere for a rainy day cuz I’m in no mood.